A Day to Remember

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OK, so the image is kind of a joke, but for those who are interested in engaging in actual thought this fine holiday, feel free to expound upon your thoughts of Kara's end in Maelstrom. Was she driven mad? Do you consider it suicide? Did she finally accept her destiny? Was hallucinating her mom's beyond-the-grave approval all she needed to shuffle off this mortal coil? Was she looking forward to a free-and-easy afterlife?

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[scifishipper.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I think she did find peace, but that isn't the same thing for me as accepting her destiny, although I can see reading it that way. Seems more like feeling peaceful about the resolution with her mother - finally believing that her mother actually loved her and that she was not an unlovable person.

I am also thinking about the hallucinations as her struggle to overcome a fear of death, as many have indicated and recently brought to mind by frolicndetour above. I remember thinking it strange that kara would be afraid of death. I have to think about it more, but I always saw her essential struggle as believing on some fundamental level that she didn't deserve to live, that she was not worth it to herself or others because of her mother's chronic abuse. And even though it was fueled by the sam anders recovery possibility, her discussion with helo about having something to live for indicates a previous belief that she had nothing to live for, not even herself. Maybe if that theme had been expanded, then I could accept that she might have been afraid to die. Now though, it's hard for me to put the pieces together.